I am a writer

Don’t ask me why I decided to be a writer; the answer is not a straight line, and if I could tell you, I’d likely complicate it.

All I know is books have always been a part of me.

I cannot remember the very first book that caught my eye. I know I read Stella Luna a dozen times. Whenever I was gripped with the sudden need to revisit it – or when I missed my mother – I sought it out. One time, I spent over a year searching for the cover because I had forgotten the title.

I know the most important book on my shelf is Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince. Not because I’m a die-hard Harry Potter fan (I am) but because, if you flipped to the cover page, there’s an inscription written in Latin. It says: per angusta ad agusta.Β Through difficulties to honors. And it was a man named Harry who wrote it for me. He was the CYS worker who changed my life by requesting my case. He believed in me.

I know the biggest book regret I have is not being able to find and finish The Finder’s Stone Trilogy by Jeff Grubb. I was young and I couldn’t appreciate it then.

I know I sat on aΒ roof deck in Pittsburgh and openly, quietly, wept at the end of Nina LaCour’s We Are Okay. It was poignant and beautiful.

I know nothing that has taught me the difficulties of blood family like Cassandra Clare’s Infernal Devices, The Mortal Instruments, and Dark Artifices.

Nicholas Spark’s The Notebook introduced sex to a fourteen-year-old me. I discovered the word “nipple” and abruptly shut the cover because it made me uncomfortable. It showed me the world beyond my concept of the present and how complicated people make love.

I know when I find the perfect lines – the ones that seem to be written just for me – I lose my breath and I want to covet them.

I know it was poetry that first turned my heart to writing.

I equate books with all the loveliest and saddest moments of my life.

Books have always been a part of me. I spent my nights as a foster kid reading until my eyes begged for sleep.Β In their pages, I learned to how to grieve my losses and to love. Books lent me their bravery, their empathy, their worldly views. And I took their lessons. I ate them and lived off of them and craved them. I cherished the comfort they brought me, the ways they made me feel when I thought I couldn’t.

In books, I was elsewhere, anywhere, everywhere.

Is this why I became a writer? I don’t know. The answer isn’t a straight line and if I tried to explain, I’d likely complicate it.

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75 thoughts on “I am a writer

  1. Love this post, I took so many writing classes in college and actually liked to do it. I am a blogger now but sometimes I get so jumbled up in my head when I write, its so crazy.

  2. I loved reading your post. I still have a pen pal that I had when I was 10 years old. I am now 60ish.

  3. Thanks for sharing with us!
    I never got into writing, I couldn’t be creative enough as my teacher said. Reading is something I always hated until 2014. Since then I have fell in love with reading and read every single day!

  4. Always interesting to read what others have to say about writing. πŸ™‚ I fell inlove with words when I was 10 and I can imagine my life without them Shopping lists poetry short stories

  5. I always wanted to be a writer to but it never happened. Being completely honest I know I have great stories to tell everyone loves my poems but I am not very good at punctuation.

  6. I Always loved reading But now suffering with Dementia I struggle with remembering what i read

  7. I wrote quite a bit while I was in University (Accounting..strange heh?) even won The Golden Poets Award for “Best first Author”. from World of Poetry…wrote a book over 425 pages in 1981, and it still sits in my closet!

  8. I really enjoyed reading this! I sought to escape my difficult childhood by reading books and I still love to read! My mother was a reader and we had book galore plus we spent a lot of time at the library.

  9. if there are no writers, there would’nt be any readers because there’s nothing to read so thank you for being a writer… =)

  10. I love reading. I always enjoyed crafting a business memo, letter or creating corporate policy. I never tried my hand at creative or story writing.

  11. My father’s a writer, my uncle too. Even though I was surrounded by books (I inherited a decent book collection from my father) since the day I was born, I was never really drawn to writing. I like reading, though πŸ™‚

  12. Always been amazed that some people can write so eloquently and in some cases even effortlessly – a gift or a craft well honed.

  13. Thanks for the Amazon giveaway! I can identify with reading novels beyond my age as a child. I still love scary novels and mysteries most of all.

  14. writing and reading extrapoles you out of this world, out of your problems, our of your reality. It makes you feel parto of something bigger than yourself at least for a period of times. Good way of expressing what this means to at lot of us.

  15. Love this post. I’m not the best writer, but I really wish I was. πŸ™‚
    Megan S.

  16. I love to write too. Not sure why. Maybe because I love reading and decided that I could write something comparable to many I’ve read but that’s yet to be seen. LOL!

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